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Kal Kabhi Guzri Hi Nahin…

Posted by shiwuz on July 9, 2011

Pehle ghanto baatein karte thae
Itni baatein ki waqt kam pad jaata tha
Fir ye toh hui kuch dus baara saal pehle ki baat
Aaj ki toh kuch alag hi kahaani hai

Dus saal guzar chuke
Lekin yaadein jaise abhi tak bani hi nahin
Kyun? Tum shaayad puchho
Kyunki lagtaa hai jaise sab ab hi ki kahaani hai

Jaise sab ab hi ho rahaa hai
Jaise kal kabhi guzri hi nahin
Jaise tum saamne ho mere
Aur raat abhi utri hi nahin

Kahaan kabhi socha thaa
Ke tum itnaa yaad aaoge
Ye bhi kahaa socha thaa
Ke tum aise hi bichhad jaaoge

Aaj bhi toh hoti hai apni baatein
Lekin wo pehle jaisi baat kahaan?
Itna kuch dabaa liya hai dil mein ki
Hothon k liye kuch baaki hi nahin

Aaj waqt toh kaafi hai
Lekin baatein kam pad jaati hai
Dil baith sa jaata hai, aur aankhein?
Aankein bejhijhak nam ho jaati hai

Baato baato mein, Kal ki yaado mein,
kahaan se kahaan kho gai
Jo kehna thaa wo kahaa hi nahin
Phir jo apni baat ho toh bataaungi
Chaahti toh tumhe shaayad bhulaa deti
Lekin aisaa naa jaane kyu, kabhi chaahaa hi nahin…

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पहले  घंटो  बातें  करते  थे
इतनी  बातें  की  वक़्त  कम  पड़  जाता  था
फिर  ये  तो  हुई  कुछ  दस  बारा साल  पहले  की  बात
आज  की  तो  कुछ  अलग  ही  कहानी  है

दस  साल  गुज़र  चुके
लेकिन  यादें  जैसे  अभी  तक  बनी  ही  नहीं
क्यूँ ? तुम  शायद  पूछो
क्यूंकि  लगता  है  जैसे  सब  अब  ही  की  कहानी  है

जैसे  सब  अब  ही  हो  रहा  है
जैसे  कल  कभी  गुज़री  ही  नहीं
जैसे  तुम  सामने  हो  मेरे
और  रात  अभी  उतरी  ही  नहीं

कहाँ  कभी  सोचा  था
के  तुम  इतना  याद  आओगे
ये  भी  कहा  सोचा  था
के  तुम  ऐसे  ही  बिछड़  जाओगे

आज  भी  तो  होती  है  अपनी  बातें
लेकिन  वो  पहले  जैसी  बात  कहाँ ?
इतना  कुछ  दबा  लिया  है  दिल  में  की
होठों  क  लिए  कुछ  बाकी  ही  नहीं

आज  वक़्त  तो  काफी  है
लेकिन  बातें  कम  पड़  जाती  है
दिल  बैठ  सा  जाता  है, और  आँखें ?
आँखें  बेझिझक  नम हो  जाती  है

बातो  बातो  में, कल  की  यादो  में,
कहाँ  से  कहाँ  खो  गई
जो  केहना था  वो  कहा  ही  नहीं
फिर  जो  अपनी  बात  हो  तो  बताउंगी
चाहती  तो  तुम्हे  शायद  भुला  देती
लेकिन  ऐसा  ना  जाने  क्यों, कभी  चाहा  ही  नहीं

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KAUN

Posted by shiwuz on December 30, 2009

khushnuma aankhon ke bheetar, chhupi nami pehchaane kaun
zaahir khushi har koi jaane, dil mein dard hai jaane kaun

raat aur din bas yehi silsila, kaun sahi hai kaun galat
lamha lamha toot toot kar, khatm ho raha jaane kaun

dheeme dheeme pighalte hue, armaano ke shaffaq ye jaam
gumshuda koi shaks maze se, pee raha hai jaane kaun

subah subah har roz vahin se, ugta hai suraj, koi shak nahi
kaunsi aisi saher mein dooba, andhera phir bhi hai jaane kaun

vo jo kho gaya ek pal mein, sadiyon se jo paa na saka
deewangi ko sar pe baandh ke, dhoond raha hai jaane kaun

meri hi tarah dard mein dooba, mere libaas mein kaun hai tu
koi baat chale to andaaza ho, zyadaa gum-geen hai jaane kaun

is dil pe itne patthar hai pade, ke dil hi patthar ka ho chala
in zakhmo ka ilaaj bhi hota, par, marham chura le gaya jaane kaun

vo hai jaise aina mera, aur main uska hi aks hua
mere hi andar rehta hai, mujh jaisa hi jaane kaun

haathon mein laqirein hain phir bhi, taqdeer kyu naraaz hai
meri mukaddar se dushmani ki saazish kar gaya jaane kaun

For my Hindi Readers:

खुशनुमा आंखो के भीतर, छुपि नमि पेहचाने कौन
ज़ाहिर खुशि हर कोइ जाने, दिल में दर्द है जाने कौन

रात और दिन बस येहि सिलसिला, कौन सहि है कौन गलत
लम्हा लम्हा टूट टूट कर, खत्म हो रहा जाने कौन

धीमे धीमे पिघलते हुए, अरमानों के शफ़्फ़क ये जाम
गुमशुदा कोइ शख्स मज़े से, पी रहा है जाने कौन

सुबह सुबह हर रोज़ वहिं से, उगता है सुरज, कोइ शक नहि
कौनसि ऐसि सेहेर मेन डूबा, अंधेरा फिर भि है जाने कौन

वो जो खो गया एक पल में, सदियों से जो पा ना सका
दीवनगी को सर पे बांध के, ढूंड रहा है जाने कौन

मेरि हि तरह दर्द मेन डूबा, मेरे लिबास में कौन है तु
कोइ बात चले तो अनदाज़ा हो, ज़्यादा गम-गीन है जाने कौन

इस दिल पे इतने पथ्थर है पडे, के दिल हि पथ्थर का हो चला
इन ज़ख्मों का इलाज भि होता, पर, मरहम चुरा ले गया जाने कौन

वो है जैसे आईना मेरा, और मैं उसका हि अकस हुअ
मेरे हि अंदर रेहता है, मुझ जैसा हि जाने कौन

हाथों में लकिरें हैं फिर भि, तकदीर क्युं नाराज़ है
मेरि मुकद्दर से दुश्मनि कि साज़िश कर गया जाने कौन

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FORGiVE

Posted by shiwuz on August 27, 2009

FORGiVE
I was led by your nature
Or at least what you showed
The concern and care
That your actions bellowed

I trusted and believed
Whatever that you said
I thought you were for real
And gave up all I had

Yes, we started off quite alright
Whatever that we had
Until you leaked the farce
And showed off your real cad

Yes it hurt.
And it hurt quite a bit
When I finally gave up my woes
And declared we were illegit

After all,
I am but a human
I do re-live my wounds
Time and often

Today was such a day
And I decided to forgive you
And free MYself for ever
From the casts of this voodoo

You abused my innocence
Yes, you faltered my faith
I used to be a lover
There’s a reason why I hate. Read the rest of this entry »

Posted in Friends, Ironies, Kabhie, Life, lost friends | Tagged: , , , | 5 Comments »

Parchhaai

Posted by shiwuz on July 8, 2009

This little masterpiece is the creation of the same friend, who put together the lines of the previously posted ‘BaeNaam’… After I read it, I thought that my readers or rather my friend’s readers deserve to know who the person is, so I asked if it is okay for me to share the name… and my friend did something more creative again – left the decision to me!


parchhaai

jab woh nahi the to koi ehsaas nahi tha
kabhi koi shikve shikayat nahi the
koi gum or kuhshiyo ka saathi bhi nahi tha

phir aap ne kadam badhaaye ya humne thaamaa haath
kuch bhi yaad nahi kahaa se hui shuruaat
aapne baant li zindagi jaise, ho khushiya gum ke saath
ab to sirf parchhaai ban ke reh gaye hum aapke baad

Posted in Ironies, Kabhie, Life | 14 Comments »

SILWATEIN

Posted by shiwuz on November 26, 2008

Zindagi  kya  hai  kaisi  hai  kyun  aisi  hai
Kuch  samajh  mein  nahi  aata
Chhaayi  jaise  gehri  udaasi  hai,
Par  udaasi  ka  kaaran  nazar  mein  nahi  aata

Ek  ghadi  hoti  hai  khushiyo  se  bhari,
Toh  dusra  pal  bohot  hi  ghumgheen
Aisa  lagta  hai  jaise  zurm  kiya  ho  maine
Koi  bohot  hi  sangheen

Pataa  nahi
Kisne  meri  hasi  chura  li  hai
Unn  maasoom  baato  par
Jaane  kisne  nazar  laga  di  hai

Baat  baat  par  bina  vajah
Mein  ro  baith  ti  hoon
Jaane  kyu  aatma  vishwaas
Mein  kho  baith  ti  hoon

Hasne  wali  mein  har  ghadi
Ab  muskurana  bhi  bhool  chuki  hoon
Aisa  lagta  hai  pal  bhar  kay  sukoon  ko
Jaane  kabse  bhukhi  hoon

Do  ghadi  hasne  ko  mile
Toh  jaise  raahat  si  hoti  hai
Lekin  turant  hi  fir
Bechaini  ki  aahat  si  hoti  hai

Khair,  aakhir  ye  sab  sochne  wala
Mera  hi  toh  mann  hai
Inhi  silwato  ka  naam  hi
Shayad jivan  hai!

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The day of a patriotic ME

Posted by shiwuz on August 15, 2008

Its not everyday that I take all my time to show my patriotism… but today, on our Independence day, that sleeping part of me, generally wakes up wide and tells me how I am so indifferent to it, blames me for sleeping all the year long, and waiting for this one day to do something, say something or write something!

And I bet that is not just me, its almost the entire Indian Youth! And to an extent its a shame! Do we really need a day to realize our duties towards our country?

Well anyways, the last thing I want to do is let this opportunity pass, and before that would happen… I figured I would express, how proud it makes me feel, every time I happen to say, I AM AN INDIAN!!

AJ and I were up late last night finding pictures that would describe my dear motherland the best, we got a few but any number would never be enough!
Though no picture could ever speak, some of these here tell stories, stories that you would narrate to yourself, stories that you live everyday, stories that you believe in, and all these are – stories about INDIA…

Also, I am embedding a video here, which again reminds me of the national integrity that we always talk about. As a small reminder to everyone who is missing the point…

“United we stood and we will stand, Divided we fell and we will fall!”

HAIL the the NATION who has given a richness of heart to all those who touched her sand…

(Its the cruelty of destiny that today I am away from India, but I guess it was necessary too, to make me realize HER worth!)

Vande Mataram!

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Haalat-e-Qalb

Posted by shiwuz on July 24, 2008

Chahne wale hai hamare jo,
Baenaam rehna chahte hai humse
Jinke khayalo ki hum kadr karte hai,

Bayaan karne se katraate hai wo

Arz karna shuru kiye hai hum jo,
Haalat-e-qalb zikar kar hi dete hai
Kabhi kabhi to khuda ki bandagi ko bhi,
Naajayaz karaar farmaate hai wo

Guftugu karte the humse jo,
Mamnoon adaa karte the hamein
Ab to aksar aate hi,
Gumshuda ho jaate hai wo

Gul khaas lagte hai humein jo,
Wo milte nahin aas paas
Khilte hai yahi kahin jo,
Dil nahin behlaate hai wo aaj.

Posted in Ironies, Life | 2 Comments »

Departure

Posted by shiwuz on June 26, 2008

And with a grief of parting with the old
I left my land with choices and compulsions
With an excitement to meet the new
I travelled miles in thousands

I met new people and I made new friends
I changed my ways and accepted new trends
But when I turn around and look back at the years
I feel like I got too far,
May be I need a second chance

Today, Someone –

Someone who’s been a mentor and a friend
Someone who I cherished the company of
Someone who I knew cared for me
Someone who I cared for

Today, Back on my mother land
That ‘someone’ passed away
I knew that I was guilty
Yes, I was just too far away!

Scanning thru the miles
I’d travelled thru these years
I recalled the time we spent
And I confronted my fears

I knew somewhere back in my mind
When I had decided to move on
That once in my life a time will come
When I’ll repent that I moved on.

I wish I stayed a little longer,
With that someone I had lost
I wish I’d built my house right there
On the roads at which we crossed

This aint the first time either,
I do have lost a lot
More and more I wish I stayed back
More often than not…

In the memory of my uncle and nephew-
Peace be, to thy great Soul!

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BaeNaam

Posted by shiwuz on June 10, 2008

As soon as you think of someone, the whole definition of that person gets titled by ‘the name’ of that person. So many people have the same name, yet so unique – and different from their co-name folks – different to people close to them! ‘Name’ which if spelled or said incorrectly, most of us would take offense to! And yet some others who say while shrugging ‘What’s in the name, ehh?!’ A lot of times, people do sins anonymously, and yet more people perform the best deeds of their lives anonymously too! Anonymity – Is it a fear of recognition, or is it a humble gesture of giving without taking credit? I guess both in different cases… … Unique to individuals and not their ‘Name’!

I am not sure what my friend was feeling, when he decided he needed to detach the name apart from him, tho’ just for a small piece of time… He wrote this for my blog, and told me he wanted to post it anonymously… and when I read the poem, I was surprised – Anonymity being the topic of his write-up too!

Cheers my friend, cheers to you, and cheers to all of us – who have felt what YOU felt at one or more moments, more often than never…

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Darr hai k thaes na lage kabhi humdardo ko
Isi liye baenaami se dard-e-dil bayaa karta hun

Aek uljhan si ho geyi hai yeh zindagi
Jise sirhane talae chupa kar soye jaata hun

Yaaron ki mehfilo mai eak muskurahat ke saath
Baegaano ki tarah paimane piye jaata hun

Jab koi kehta hai k dil ki suno
Tab zeher si zuba bayaa kiye jaata hun

Koi kehta hai ke dimaag se kaam lo
To berukhi se kai dilo ko todae jaata hun

Dekhe hue khwaabo ko such karey ki talaash hai
Shayad ise liye hakikat se khud ko churaye jaata hun

Chod k yeh dil aur dimaag k kashmakash bhare taey khaane
Sochta hun k chhin lu usse apne aap k liye
Phir har subah apni yeh zindagi apno ke liye jiye jaata hun

– BaeNaam

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Anuranan… Resonance… Vibration… Spandan

Posted by shiwuz on June 1, 2008

I was watching today, a movie i had never heard of before – Anuranan.

As each day goes, I am getting more and more absorbed into artful works of different kinds. Be it superior writing, painting, acting or thinking. As a result of that, I have become very fond of Rahul Bose lately. I have been watching his movies for the past couple days – Chameli and then Anuranan – and I see the consistency that he has, as an actor, as a performer, as a character, and to me – even as a person! Anuranan – starring Rahul Bose was captivating enough to make me watch the movie and then the name of it intrigued me even more.

No I am not writing a movie review – I am trying to share something I learnt from it. A line that fell on my ears and travelled straight thru my within, and may be i think gave me a new perspective of looking towards things, and analyzing my own behaviors. A line originally by Sir Rabindranath Tagore –

“IT IS THE HARDEST TO RETURN” – He said.

Returned here was referrring to going back, going back where you started, going back to the origin, going back to the roots.

And I pondered, is it true? After some quakes and spumes that were aroused in my thinking process, I was convinced – It is true! Certainly.

The movie overall was good, very low keyed, some may even call it un-real… but it touched me in someway.
Some such way that I do not know how, where and why? It just touched me deep within…

Rahul – just one more addition to your list of fans =)

Keep enlightening!

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Kabhie…

Posted by shiwuz on April 20, 2008

Kabhie kahin koi din aisa aaye

Ki saanse chalti rahein aur waqt ruk jaaye

Kabhie kahin koi sagar kinare,

Pani behta rahein aur lehrein sookh jaaye

Ek aisi bhi kabhie shaam aaye

Jab suraj na doobe or chaand nikal aaye

Kabhie mujhe bhi kisise pyar ho

Aur meri deewangi mohobbat ki misaal ban jaaye

Kabhie kahin kisiko mein dekhti rahoon

Aur uski gehri aankho mein mera dil doob jaaye

Aur koi din chaahe aaye na aaye,

Bus ek aisa khoobsurat din zarur aaye

Jisme phulon ki mehek ho, Dharti ki goad ho,

Panchhiyo ki chehk ho, Taaron ki khoj ho,

Aur aahista se ye tann mann mere kudrat mein mil jaaye!

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Tangled

Posted by shiwuz on February 27, 2008

tangled.jpg

Sometimes I get confused.

I try to live by this funda: live life king size. I believe that life is too short for any moment to be spent unhappy… whatever happens in life cannot be so bad that u forget to smile! And most of the times, I succeed in applying it to my own life.

And then some other things I come across leave me all baffled. I hear about how people suffer, and I fail to find reasons that would provide them the faintest smile in an entire lifetime.

What could someone have done to deserve all so many misfortunes at once?! What could have led them to do something as bad that made them deserve it?! Did they incur all those misdeeds in their right minds, or were they forced by circumstances to do it?

And I keep on thinking and I keep getting confused all over again and again…

How can God be so unfair to some people and yet so blissful on some others? Am I even rightful to blame God for anything at all…? Or is it the people who need to be blamed? And if they are to be blamed, why do they need to be blamed?

I apologize to anyone who reads it, if this leaves you confused! That has not been the intent, or may be I wish I could be more clear to myself then I would not have had to project this to beyond my within!

Being able to write this in all the expectable luxuries of life, sometimes I wonder. Do I have the right to be so comfortable, when many others strive to convince themselves that there must be some fairness in this life that gets harsher with each passing breath? Or even if I do not have that right, why not?

Sometimes, tears roll down my eyes… making me feel helpless and hopeless! What can I do to solve this confusion and get some peace of mind? What can I do to make myself not feel guilty about the conditions of my other people?!

Apart by no more than six degrees of separation in theory, all so close and yet all so different, sometimes I get confused!

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