Bewafa Bar Mein
18 09 2008I know its been a while since I posted something, but it hasn’t really bean a while that I wrote something. Infact, in the 10 years that I have been writing since, the max I’ve ever taken to write any poem has been about 45 minutes… but this one, this one has taken the most time I’ve ever spent on a single poem, almost about a month.
Why? I don’t know, may be what I felt was too complicated and may be what I felt, I never felt before! And even after I took all this time to write it I don’t know if I have accomplished what I aspired to! May be you can tell me, may be you understand it more than I do… May be, who knows?!
To read the poem, please click on the image, and then click once again to zoom into it… sorry for the trouble, but I could not find a better way to lay it out…
Image courtesy: artmgallery
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The day of a patriotic ME
15 08 2008Its not everyday that I take all my time to show my patriotism… but today, on our Independence day, that sleeping part of me, generally wakes up wide and tells me how I am so indifferent to it, blames me for sleeping all the year long, and waiting for this one day to do something, say something or write something!
And I bet that is not just me, its almost the entire Indian Youth! And to an extent its a shame! Do we really need a day to realize our duties towards our country?
Well anyways, the last thing I want to do is let this opportunity pass, and before that would happen… I figured I would express, how proud it makes me feel, every time I happen to say, I AM AN INDIAN!!
AJ and I were up late last night finding pictures that would describe my dear motherland the best, we got a few but any number would never be enough!
Though no picture could ever speak, some of these here tell stories, stories that you would narrate to yourself, stories that you live everyday, stories that you believe in, and all these are - stories about INDIA…
Also, I am embedding a video here, which again reminds me of the national integrity that we always talk about. As a small reminder to everyone who is missing the point…
“United we stood and we will stand, Divided we fell and we will fall!”
HAIL the the NATION who has given a richness of heart to all those who touched her sand…
(Its the cruelty of destiny that today I am away from India, but I guess it was necessary too, to make me realize HER worth!)
Vande Mataram!
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Footprints
3 08 2008This may not be the first time I quote what my brother always says… ‘Appreciation is a writer’s biggest inspiration’… and I feel it, always! Yes it does give me feeling of strength, pride and all them good things… but most important, it inspires me to write, more and better…
This one is for one of those friends. I had no clue that he knew about my blog, and not just that - my friend has been a regular reader, and not just that, my next article is waited upon too!! Flattering of course! And I think - there may be many more like him, and may be not…
Again, the intentions are mostly to make sure I am not giving up on one of my favorite things - write! So here I write again, put together a few thoughts, hopefully they do what they always do!
All steps don’t leave footprints
Sometimes we walk just too light
Or maybe on the shores that are washed away every night
Not knowing that we touch the sand
To leave the impressions- those are highly volatile
That’s maybe how I also touched your hand
Aah those memories, I wish they, too, were fragile
So that whenever I would touch them
They would break up into pieces
And if I ever wanted to go back
There would be no sign or no traces
How I wish my heart was like the sand on a beach
No one could have ever marred
How I wish my heart was out of your reach
My happiness, you could have never barred
Oh though, you must know this
Your going away does not bother me
More so, I shall say I often pity you
For the truth that you could never see
And my tears, salted as the mighty sea
Have washed it all away,
Yes, I have gotten over you
Good thing I chose not to stay!
Yes I pity you,
How you failed yourself
I hope you get to feel now
What you have never felt
May Be - all steps do leave footprints
When you walk along the wet shores of a sea
Tho’ the waters do come to wash them
If they were not meant to be
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Haalat-e-Qalb
24 07 2008
Chahne wale hai hamare jo,
Baenaam rehna chahte hai humse
Jinke khayalo ki hum kadr karte hai,
Bayaan karne se katraate hai wo
Arz karna shuru kiye hai hum jo,
Haalat-e-qalb zikar kar hi dete hai
Kabhi kabhi to khuda ki bandagi ko bhi,
Naajayaz karaar farmaate hai wo
Guftugu karte the humse jo,
Mamnoon adaa karte the hamein
Ab to aksar aate hi,
Gumshuda ho jaate hai wo
Gul khaas lagte hai humein jo,
Wo milte nahin aas paas
Khilte hai yahi kahin jo,
Dil nahin behlaate hai wo aaj.
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Tagged again! (this time inspirationally)
18 07 2008
Nikhil had tagged me long time ago, but it was now that I was just reading through my comments and I realized that I had been tagged! I was a little inadvertent to tags, not because of any disinterest towards them, but because of ignorance about the whole idea of tagging!
To me it just means that someone trusts that I may come up with something at least readable to (maybe) conform their expectations from me!
Sorry Nik, again I’ve no excuses for the very late outcome of your kind effort to invoke the inspiration in me. But I believe you believe that its ‘better late then never!’
So I am inspirationally tagged! What’s my inspiration? Hmm, interesting question.
But before that, is there just one inspiration that a writer or poet could have? Inspiration – its debatable if all inspirations are real or fictitious.
Here, I have to mention a SONG that inspires me, but there are different facets to that as well, which add to my spontaneously accomplished state of confusion. I know a few songs that do, but is it the music, is it the lyrics, is it the rhythm, is it the voice of the artist? What is in that song that inspires me?
I had to think a bit… and I came up with a few…
But before that, I will mention the one I decided has it all…
“Tom’s Diner” by Suzanne Vega
I have no explanation of course, or no justification, as to why I pick that one song.
There is something about it, undoubtedly!
Few other I like are:
I know, this may overwrite the rules of the tag, of ONE SONG, but there are always lee ways and exceptions… and then I can’t be disloyal to these other songs that inspire me either!
And I have to pass it on to 5 people, now that’s the toughest part!
Okay I at last managed… Here goes my tag… Rajesh, Viral, Sea Of Memories, Deeps, Rahul
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Departure
26 06 2008
And with a grief of parting with the old
I left my land with choices and compulsions
With an excitement to meet the new
I travelled miles in thousands
I met new people and I made new friends
I changed my ways and accepted new trends
But when I turn around and look back at the years
I feel like I got too far,
May be I need a second chance
Today, Someone –
Someone who’s been a mentor and a friend
Someone who I cherished the company of
Someone who I knew cared for me
Someone who I cared for
Today, Back on my mother land
That ‘someone’ passed away
I knew that I was guilty
Yes, I was just too far away!
Scanning thru the miles
I’d travelled thru these years
I recalled the time we spent
And I confronted my fears
I knew somewhere back in my mind
When I had decided to move on
That once in my life a time will come
When I’ll repent that I moved on.
I wish I stayed a little longer,
With that someone I had lost
I wish I’d built my house right there
On the roads at which we crossed
This aint the first time either,
I do have lost a lot
More and more I wish I stayed back
More often than not…
–
In the memory of my uncle and nephew-
Peace be, to thy great Soul!
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BaeNaam
10 06 2008As soon as you think of someone, the whole definition of that person gets titled by ‘the name’ of that person. So many people have the same name, yet so unique - and different from their co-name folks - different to people close to them! ‘Name’ which if spelled or said incorrectly, most of us would take offense to! And yet some others who say while shrugging ‘What’s in the name, ehh?!’ A lot of times, people do sins anonymously, and yet more people perform the best deeds of their lives anonymously too! Anonymity - Is it a fear of recognition, or is it a humble gesture of giving without taking credit? I guess both in different cases… … Unique to individuals and not their ‘Name’!
I am not sure what my friend was feeling, when he decided he needed to detach the name apart from him, tho’ just for a small piece of time… He wrote this for my blog, and told me he wanted to post it anonymously… and when I read the poem, I was surprised – Anonymity being the topic of his write-up too!
Cheers my friend, cheers to you, and cheers to all of us – who have felt what YOU felt at one or more moments, more often than never…
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Darr hai k thaes na lage kabhi humdardo ko
Isi liye baenaami se dard-e-dil bayaa karta hun
Aek uljhan si ho geyi hai yeh zindagi
Jise sirhane talae chupa kar soye jaata hun
Yaaron ki mehfilo mai eak muskurahat ke saath
Baegaano ki tarah paimane piye jaata hun
Jab koi kehta hai k dil ki suno
Tab zeher si zuba bayaa kiye jaata hun
Koi kehta hai ke dimaag se kaam lo
To berukhi se kai dilo ko todae jaata hun
Dekhe hue khwaabo ko such karey ki talaash hai
Shayad ise liye hakikat se khud ko churaye jaata hun
Chod k yeh dil aur dimaag k kashmakash bhare taey khaane
Sochta hun k chhin lu usse apne aap k liye
Phir har subah apni yeh zindagi apno ke liye jiye jaata hun
- BaeNaam
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Anuranan… Resonance… Vibration… Spandan
1 06 2008
I was watching today, a movie i had never heard of before - Anuranan.
As each day goes, I am getting more and more absorbed into artful works of different kinds. Be it superior writing, painting, acting or thinking. As a result of that, I have become very fond of Rahul Bose lately. I have been watching his movies for the past couple days - Chameli and then Anuranan - and I see the consistency that he has, as an actor, as a performer, as a character, and to me - even as a person! Anuranan - starring Rahul Bose was captivating enough to make me watch the movie and then the name of it intrigued me even more.
No I am not writing a movie review - I am trying to share something I learnt from it. A line that fell on my ears and travelled straight thru my within, and may be i think gave me a new perspective of looking towards things, and analyzing my own behaviors. A line originally by Sir Rabindranath Tagore -
“IT IS THE HARDEST TO RETURN” - He said.
Returned here was referrring to going back, going back where you started, going back to the origin, going back to the roots.
And I pondered, is it true? After some quakes and spumes that were aroused in my thinking process, I was convinced - It is true! Certainly.
The movie overall was good, very low keyed, some may even call it un-real… but it touched me in someway.
Some such way that I do not know how, where and why? It just touched me deep within…
Rahul - just one more addition to your list of fans =)
Keep enlightening!
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“ULJHAN”
26 05 2008Its 2:32 am, and I am not sure if I should call it 2:32 in the morning or 2:32 at night!
And why am I blogging at this awkward time?
AJ and I are just over with the longest silence we ever have had between us. And we both agreed to a point that it was no fun without the noise!
All this time, I thought that my scripts were entertaining…
But ever since my brother started writing, I felt that I should quit…
I wasn’t even close to being a rookie when I read his pieces…
But then I regained some strength, and put in some efforts to continue writing, but just today, I got this big blow right on my face which reminded me that I should really quit writing! The blow? It was from AJ, and it was actually a good one, the kind I would take lovingly at any given point of time.
The weather was good throughout the day, and later in the evening it got a bit cold. So I was kind of nagging, that we should go home… (we were in the ‘all-summer’ mood, until I gave up on the falling temperature)
Right then, AJ told me these few lines, which his mind built up, during the silence between us that I earlier mentioned of…
And I was so touched and taken by his thoughtfulness; I sincerely thought that my feelings were shallow and that my words did not even exist before his… I surrender with pride, and I surrender with respect for my conqueror!
The following lines, especially coming from ‘his’ thoughts, is what set me aback, and I noticed my self jaw-dropped, by the time he completed the last line! And once again, I thought that I should quit writing!
A magnificent work of art, direct dil-se!
(AJ, I love you more and more every time I think that I love you!)
Zarurat se kuch kam hone ki main sazaa paa rahaa hoon
Rishto aur rakam mein, main uljha jaa raha hoon
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Maut Kishto mein mil rahi hai
Use Zindagi se main chuka raha hoon
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Teri chuppi aur meri ankahi
Sannato se shunya ki taraf jaa rahaa hoon
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Zarurat se kuch kam hone ki main sazaa paa rahaa hoon
Rishto aur rakam mein, main uljha jaa raha hoon
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Tagged!
8 05 2008Last movie seen in a theatre:
Black and White… I cant believe Anil Kapoor is 54 years old, I think he is a bigger surprise then Rekha… and the other guys looks great too, good looks with great talent!
What book are you reading?
Ship It!!
Favourite board game:
Sequence!!!! Its goooooooooooood…
Favorite magazine:
RD, yes I am still a little kid!! 
Favorite smells:
Smell from a new earthen water pot, rainshowers, issey miyake…
Favorite sound:
My Wind-chimes!!
Worst feeling in the world:
Hangover from the ‘last night’!!
What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
I made it thru one other day, THANK GOD!!!
Favorite fast food place:
Laaries of India…
Future child’s name:
Don’t want it to be leaked… I m too picky!
Finish this statement, “If I had a lot of money I’d…”
think what to do!
Do you drive fast?
I dint say I’d answer all questions!
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
yeah, stuffed with veins and arteries and muscles and bones and skin… a little extra stuffed…
Storms - Cool or Scary?
Cool in deserts, scary in cities…
Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
Absolutely!
If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
All white…
Name all the different cities/towns you have lived in:
Security measure agains ID Theft… UNDISCLOSED!
Favorite sports to watch:
I rather be in the game…
One nice thing about the person who sent this to you:
My Guru in story writing…
What’s under your bed?
Dirt!!
Would you like to be born as yourself again?
Only as myself… I refuse anything else!
Morning person or night owl?
I sleep during both mentioned phases… Actually, I sleep all the time…
Over easy or sunny side up?
A good combination of the two…
Favourite place to relax:
Terrace of our first house…
Favourite pie:
Fudge Brownie…..
Favourite ice cream flavor:
Chocolate chips always…
You pass this tag to:
I don’t know anyone! L
Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first?
If only I passed it…
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Mera to gum badalta rehta hai
2 05 2008
Ik ik saans ke saath,
Vaqt karvat badalta rehta hai..
Kuch naye rishto ke aage,
Ek purana rishta rang badalta rehta hai
Vo jo dil ko azeez hua karta tha kabhi,
Ab roz mere aage chehre badalta rehta hai
Yaari utaar ke taang di usne kapdo samet
Vo yaaro ke jazbaat badalta rehta hai
Uss rishte ki surat budhi ho gai fir bhi
Kyu vo aaine badalta rehta hai!
Yaadein to mit ne se rahi…
Zamaana badalta rehta hai
Vo raazdaar hi kya hoga
Jo humraaz badalta rehta hai
Haal-e-bayaan kar deta hoon jis se
Dil ka mahol badalta rehta hai
Chahta hoon, khud ko badal dalu
Jaise har shaks badalta rehta hai
Main gum nahi karta kisi baat par
Mera to gum badalta rehta hai
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Aankhein
25 04 2008
Jhalakte hai un aankho mein maikhaane kai baar
Chhalakte hai un aankho se paimaane kai hazaar
Panapte hai un aankho mein aashiq beqarar
Khilte hai unhe dekh kar ye gulshan ye gul-e-gulzar
Daras ko un aankho k taras jaati hoon mein
Karti rehti hoon har dum buss un aankho ka intezar
Ab to na soch baaki hai na samajh baaki hai mujhme
Kar jo nahi sakti mein un aankho ka ikhtiyaar
Hothon par sajte rehte hai aksar kuch tanha tanha naghme
Un aankho k bina ab aata hai na chein aur na hi karaar
Aawaam mein zaya karti hoon mein soone se ye lamhe
Un aankho k bina nindiya bhi aane se karti hai inkaar
Kabhie meri khabar na mile to kehna unko, wo padhle zara akhbaar
Wo jo na mile to nikla hoga kahin meri maut ka bhi ishtihaar
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Ehsaas na tha…
22 04 2008
Kaagaz par phir shabdo ki kuch lakirein hum khinch diye
Wo lakirein kiski k liye yaadon ki sarhad ban jayegi ye ehsaas na tha…
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Mehsus kiya hai ik aisa bhi rishta
Jo naam se aage nikal gaya
Malum pada jab logo ko
Duniya ne usko kuchal diya
Wo rishta dheere dheere se duniya se ojhal hone lagaa
Dil mein to magar wo tabse hi naasur k jaise palne lagaa
Hamara ghaav unhe dard na de so ghaav hum andar hi dabaa liye
Wo ghaav hi phir hamare jeene ki wajah ban jaayega, ye ehsaas na tha…
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Wo ghaav jo dabaa k rakkha tha
Hum marham uska bana liye
Phir halke halke malkar usko
Chaddar k taley hum chhupa liye
Wo marham dhire dhire se, chaddar me aise ghulne lagaa
Wo ghaav to akkhir roojh gaya, chaddar ka rang kuch udne lagaa
Gaur se usko dekha to phir, khud hi se hum mukar liye
Ek ghaav mitane wala marham, chaddar par daag sa ban jaayega ye ehsaas na tha…
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Dil ka bojh halka karne hum kalam toh utha diye
Wahi kalam ka tez rukh kisike dil par katari ban jayega ye ehsaas na tha
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Yaad…
20 04 2008
Aapki yaad phir aati hai,
Par aane ke baad vo jaati to nahin
Kitna ye hamein rulaati hai,
Par aankho mein pani laati to nahin
Har kaam kuch kuch karte hain - kuch kuch nahin karte,
Ye dhadkan aapka naam bhulati jo nahin
Aap kya gaye hum to yu murjha gaye,
Koi bhi khushi dil ko behlati to nahin
Ye kya ho gaya hamein, kar baithe hum khud hi se dushmani,
Aapne kahin hamari raahein bhuladi to nahin
Thandi havaein jab chhoo jaati hai to lagta hai,
Kahin yaado ki aag phir jaladi to nahin
Idhar udhar dekh kar phir sochte hai,
Kahin kisine hamari kismat churali to nahin
Phir sochte hai sab kuch khuda pe chhod de,
Phir lagta hai kahin usse bhi hamari ye haalat ganvaari to nahin!
Phir sochte hai sab kuch khuda pe chhod de,
Phir lagta hai kahin ussey bhi hamari ye haalat ganvaari to nahin!
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Kabhie…
20 04 2008 
Kabhie kahin koi din aisa aaye
Ki saanse chalti rahein aur waqt ruk jaaye
Kabhie kahin koi sagar kinare,
Pani behta rahein aur lehrein sookh jaaye
Ek aisi bhi kabhie shaam aaye
Jab suraj na doobe or chaand nikal aaye
Kabhie mujhe bhi kisise pyar ho
Aur meri deewangi mohobbat ki misaal ban jaaye
Kabhie kahin kisiko mein dekhti rahoon
Aur uski gehri aankho mein mera dil doob jaaye
Aur koi din chaahe aaye na aaye,
Bus ek aisa khoobsurat din zarur aaye
Jisme phulon ki mehek ho, Dharti ki goad ho,
Panchhiyo ki chehk ho, Taaron ki khoj ho,
Aur aahista se ye tann mann mere kudrat mein mil jaaye!
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To A Lost Friend…
9 04 2008
Sometimes, when people talk about friends, you always come to my mind and you always come to my heartfelt thoughts…
Sometimes when I hear some of your favorite songs, my eyes wet with
tears, and I look back thru the years…
Sometimes I cherish the times we spent together, and sometimes
I repent the mistakes we made…
Sometimes I think it was hard to find you, and then I realize it was the
hardest to let you go…
Do you never ever think of me?
Do you never cry like I do?
I know its been years, and people get over stuff,
But I cant, may be cuz you were an inseparable part of me…
Whether you believe it or not, I cant do anything to make you see,
How much and how much I do miss you!!
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Tangled
27 02 2008
Sometimes I get confused.
I try to live by this funda: live life king size. I believe that life is too short for any moment to be spent unhappy… whatever happens in life cannot be so bad that u forget to smile! And most of the times, I succeed in applying it to my own life.
And then some other things I come across leave me all baffled. I hear about how people suffer, and I fail to find reasons that would provide them the faintest smile in an entire lifetime.
What could someone have done to deserve all so many misfortunes at once?! What could have led them to do something as bad that made them deserve it?! Did they incur all those misdeeds in their right minds, or were they forced by circumstances to do it?
And I keep on thinking and I keep getting confused all over again and again…
How can God be so unfair to some people and yet so blissful on some others? Am I even rightful to blame God for anything at all…? Or is it the people who need to be blamed? And if they are to be blamed, why do they need to be blamed?
I apologize to anyone who reads it, if this leaves you confused! That has not been the intent, or may be I wish I could be more clear to myself then I would not have had to project this to beyond my within!
Being able to write this in all the expectable luxuries of life, sometimes I wonder. Do I have the right to be so comfortable, when many others strive to convince themselves that there must be some fairness in this life that gets harsher with each passing breath? Or even if I do not have that right, why not?
Sometimes, tears roll down my eyes… making me feel helpless and hopeless! What can I do to solve this confusion and get some peace of mind? What can I do to make myself not feel guilty about the conditions of my other people?!
Apart by no more than six degrees of separation in theory, all so close and yet all so different, sometimes I get confused!
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